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You can't kick a wall's ass (Pauly - 11/11/01 @ 10:15 PM EST)
Yeah, that's what I learned tonight.  I got stressed out, got pissed off, punched a brick dorm wall, and now my middle knuckle on my right hand is darker than all the rest.  I just wish this goddamn building could have felt some of that pain too.  Lately, I just really REALLY hate this place.  I hate having to share a room with someone.  No, I don't hate my roommate, and I don't hate any of the people on my hall, but I hate being around them all the time, and I hate not having any privacy whatsoever, and I hate feeling like I have to entertain people when all I want is to be alone for a while.  I also hate the fact that I'm unmotivated, that I suck at electronics, that I'm lazy, that I'm a whiny jerk, and that my life is miserable right now and I feel like I'm trapped and I don't know how to get out.  Right now I just want to leave this place forever and forget I was ever in engineering.  I'm tired of it, and I'm tired of it making me feel like I have an IQ of about 7.  I just want to leave.  I just wish they'd let me leave.  But they won't.  There's only one way I can get out of this place now, and I don't want to do that, and noone else wants me to do that either.  So I'm stuck.